Category: Life Lately

Before I even started writing this, I second-guessed myself about a hundred times. I didn’t want this to come off like I was calling anyone out or dumping emotion onto the internet without thinking it through. I even had my best friend read it, and she told me to leave it as is. And the…

What a week it has been. It all started last Wednesday, with smegma. Or so I thought. I was in that post-period mental drive—ready to be productive, ready to obsess a little, and determined to keep myself rational. We’ve settled into a mostly productive routine… minus the gym, because we haven’t dared step foot in…

(Still Me In Here Blog — Free Writing Edition) I’m sitting on my bed with ocean sounds playing from PokPok, pretending I’m the kind of person who has her inner world totally under control. Evelyn and I had a good morning, which is probably why my brain decided to take this moment to fire off…

There are people who change you quietly, piece by piece, and then there are the ones who grab your soul by the shoulders and remind you that you’re still in there. You are those women for me. I’ve lost touch with so many people over the years—some on purpose, some by accident—but recently I reconnected…

Last week I was sitting there trying to fill out new patient paperwork for a dentist appointment while listening to Clark growl at Finn—who, for the record, has no concept of personal space. I was also, inexplicably, mad. Not at anyone or anything in particular—just ragey. Existing, ambient rage. Like, “I need to be outside…

Before you read this, please know:This isn’t about blame. It’s about how things feel from my side. I’m not saying anyone is wrong. I’m just trying to give language to feelings that I often carry quietly. Writing is how I process, not how I point fingers. I love deeply, and this is one way I…

(Written a couple of weeks ago — but spoiler alert: not much has changed ) It’s 10:48 a.m. and I am overstimulated AF. Evelyn is in rare form today. I’m trying—really trying—to stay kind and calm, but my goodness. It feels like she woke up and decided her mission was to give me the middle…

The elephant in the room? Grief has been driving my life for the last six years. Sometimes quietly in the passenger seat, sometimes full-on grabbing the damn wheel. And when you let grief (or fear, or autopilot) take control, you don’t glide gracefully down a smooth road. No. You find yourself off-roading through cornfields in…

I saw this Reel on Instagram the other day (probably from TikTok, but whatever — I get everything late like every other elder millennial). The woman was saying how she started using the word “OK” whenever her kids were being… well, kids. She stopped arguing, stopped overexplaining, stopped taking the bait. She just said “OK.”…

Nick and I have been navigating this life together for nearly a decade now. We’ve had some really hard talks, some that almost ended us, and some that reminded us—hopefully—that every single day we choose each other. And yes, I can be stubborn. I get caught in how I think things should be, instead of…